An adult model and social media influencer, Neyleen Ashley, who has amassed 3 million followers on Instagram, has recently opened up about her decision to embrace celibacy. The 34-year-old model, who reportedly earns around $55,000 monthly on OnlyFans, has chosen to abstain from sexual activity because she believes that no man is deserving of sleeping with her. Neyleen expressed her frustration with real-life sexual encounters, stating that the men she meets are solely interested in her physical appearance and lack genuine connections. This realization came after her previous breakup, where her ex-partner revealed that he had no desire to be a father or husband, leading Neyleen to face the challenges of finding a new place to live while caring for her two children. The emotional distress and heartbreak caused by the breakup significantly tainted her perception of sex, resulting in the loss of enjoyment and euphoria she once experienced. Moreover, Neyleen shared a heartbreaking experience of her boyfriend ending their relationship shortly after she suffered a miscarriage, leaving her in a vulnerable state without the support she needed. These traumatic events led Neyleen, who acknowledged being a "recovering sex addict," to commit to celibacy and protect her body from further pain. She expressed concern about the intentions of individuals she engages with intimately, fearing that they may only view her as an object rather than getting to know her true self and her heart. Neyleen strongly believes in the transfer of energies during sexual intercourse, and her recent years of sexual encounters have left her feeling empty, unfulfilled, and unloved. She described herself as a former sex addict who relied on constant sexual release multiple times a day to function, comparing it to an addiction to cigarettes. However, she has now shifted her focus to self-love, self-healing, and self-soothing, redirecting the energy she once sought from others toward nurturing herself.
‘I decided to be celibate after my ex told me he didn’t want to be a father or a husband, and he wasn’t living his truth,’ the model told Nude PR. ‘I found myself having to scramble for a place to go, after leaving his place, and having to go to work and take care of my two kids, 11 and 15, while enduring heartbreak.
“The breakup and pain I endured put such a bad taste in my mouth about sex. Now the enjoyment and euphoria I once got from sex is gone.”
“I was four months into my pregnancy with a baby girl, I even had a gender reveal — but I lost the baby at month four,’ she said.
“Less than a month later, still bleeding from the miscarriage, my ex told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore.’
She said this experience makes her worry about who is sleeping with, and their intention towards her.
“I’m afraid of people that just want to use me for sex, and never get to know me as a person, or my heart,’ she said. ‘I believe that energies get transferred through sexual intercourse and throughout the last few years, sex made me feel empty afterwards.
Never fulfilled, never loved… I felt like a rag doll.’
I was a sex addict for a long time. I couldn’t leave the house because I was at home masturbating and had to have sexual release multiple times a day, if not, I just couldn’t function.
It felt like a cigarette. I had to take a puff off, or I couldn’t go about my day without my fix.
That also came with the attention I was trying to receive from men, the sexting, the pictures back and forth, the dopamine hits I got from successfully pursuing them.
But still left me starving, because I was settling for crumbs in people, instead of loving myself.
Now I only love myself – in every way – I’m practicing self-healing, self-love, and self-soothing, and giving myself the energy I previously gave to others.”
